Dear Diary,

I can't believe it's already August. I mean this whole past month passed fater than a fart in the wind. Wewee! And it was a hot one too! I'll be so much of a gladder person when it starts to get cooler outside. Guess what Diary? My brother called me today (you know, the one that is the uglier version of me?) and told me about some contest that a local radio station is putting on. Supposedly you can win some money and other great suff if you can come up with the best idea for a web-site. I'm thinking about writing them and telling them my idea for the "virtual bar" site. You know the one I told you about where you can go to and sit down at a fake bar (strippers are optional) and drink fake drinks while talking to your fake friends? I think it would be a winner. Oh! I almost forgot! I found out today that I really am stupid. Confirmation of a suspicion of mine. I'm pretty tired right now...I'm going to the bed. Good-bye!

P.s. - Go check out this sweet band called Story of the Year! You'll like 'em I know you will.

Caleb

Mood - tired and a little depressed
Song - no music tonight
Good thing - nothing comes to mind

Dear Diary,

I had BO at work yesterday it was awful! It was so humid and I kept smelling this stinkyness all day...well come to find out it was my pits. How embarassing! I've decided that I like that show called "Made" on MTV. I know you can't watch TV Diary but don't worry, im pretty sure that I can like it enough for the both of us. I accually cried when I watched it today. It was about this bitchy chick named Brittney who was made into the prom queen. She ended up not being such a bitch after all, so don't you worry, it was a happy ending. Did I ever tell you about that time I ate that canned fake-cheese? Well I won't go into it but I just now thought about it and it was totally gross. I totally wish that you could give me a pat on the back tonight, cuz it's a friday night and I'm at home all alone. Oh well...it's not every night that you can walk around the house naked right? It was so funny, earlier I was out on my porch and someone had left a half-full glass of Dr. Pepper out there. Well let's just say that the flies hoaned in on it! But the funny part is that I trapped them in the glass and they fell into the DP and started drowning, made me laugh. Well I'm gonna go take a crap and then sit on my roomates bed...naked. Peace out Diary.

PS - I hate kankles.

Ya bro,
Caleb

Essays

As some of you know I am working on a new site: http://www.victimoflife.net that should be operational in September. I am however be publishing on here some of the essays that will also be included in my new site. Read on and I hope you enjoy.


Life. What are the secrets that are withheld from all of us? It is evident to me that it holds certain unsaid mysteries. Life. What a wonderful yet tiring word. Wonderful for everything that such a simple word could hold. Tiring from all the thoughts and experiences that are accompanied by such. What does life hold for us? It become more and more evident to me that there is irrefutable truth in the fact that it is just that; what you make of it. All of us have boundaries, places in which we cannot or will not go. How are these established? What takes a person to the extreme of trying to deny the boundaries that exist for them? It became evident to me when I was about 19 years old. In my search for the "meaning" that surrounded everything that I did, I somehow seemed to stumble upon what I view to be a jewel among truths. How did I become the person that I am today, and what changes in my life (if any) will allow me to become the person that I will be in 20 years,where such questions that I was asking myself at the time. All the people I had been in contact with, all the exponential situations I had stumbled into or put myself into, or more importantly led into. These it seems where the key in my hypothesis. Communication with everything, through voice, action or inaction. Could it be that communication through all or any of these devices had anything to do with who I am? How I communicated, how I thought (communication with one's self), could it all have been changed somehow to adapt to this process? My mother once told me that if you want to be like a similar group of people than those are the exact kind of people that you need to embrace and keep around you. If you think about it this is truth. I believe the person that we are, hope to be or inevitable become greatly if not only depends on the influences (modes of communication)that we are succomed by. This is who we are, the culmination of innumerable amounts of communication. Or at least I should say that is how we have become the "who" that we are.
more to come later....

To anyone who might accually read this blog,

I'm working on a website. If you want to pop in and check the place out, have at it!

www.victimoflife.net

Caleb

Been a long time comin...

I know, I know. It seems that everytime I post something on this blog I always seem to say something to the affect of "Wow! It's been so long since I have posted something!" or the infamous "So much has changed since I last posted!". Well, all that is crap. I mean it's not like those things have not taken place it's just that I am tired of saying crap like that.

Well let's see. Since the last time I posted I have moved into a different house. Now I am living in Tyler with a good friend. Acually a godd frined's brother to be exact. It's pretty cool having a roomie, and a roomie that's someone other than my brother. So far things have been going pretty good. Yes, we have gone to a couple of parties (at one party one girl even welcomed me by showing me her bosom twins, but thats another story). And since my new roomie has a motorcycle too I now have someone to ride around with and stir up trouble with.

Everything else is pretty much the same other that the sudden lack of laziness when it comes to keeping up with my websites, and the sudden increase in responsibility in other areas of my life. I am getting alot better on my guitar and are even having aspirations of stating my own bad although the lack of other band members at the moment are kinda puting that on hold.

Well...I got to run over to my parents house. Catch later. Holla!

Good grief it's been a long time since I have posted anything! So much has changes since the last time I posted, I doubt there is anyway I can catch up on everything that has happened.

Let's see.

Well....I really don't know what to write about. Oh! I've got it! It's 10:00pm and I just drank one of those hugemondo energy drinks and I'm so wired right now. It's kinda funny. Also, I'm bored as heck. Ohh well, I'm sure I will get over it as soon as this stinkin' energy drink wears off.

For those of you that don't know, I am working on this web-site that has the possibility to make me rich. Accually now that I think about it I havn't started working on it yet, but don't worry, it's comming. I'm still kinda in the research phase. It's gonna take alot of work and I'm really just too darned lazy right now to accually start putting it together.

Well...I think I am gonna go try to get into some sorda trouble. I'll post more later!

Unbelievable

I posted a couple times in the past week or so, but something strange had been happening. Every time I would post it would show up on "My Dashboard" but it wouldn't show up on my blog. Well, I tried to fixing it every way I knew how and nothing seemed to work. So I started to wonder if it might be my template. I had done alot of tweeking on it and figured I had probably messed it up somehow. Sure enough. So now I have a totaly different look and have to put all my links and crap back in. Oh well, that just makes it more intresting.